THE STORY OF MY LIFE

23/24-4-2011

2011-04-24T19:39:00.000-07:00

D weekend was very relaxing, nothing much happened. Didn't go to anywhere also. it was a our lazy weekend.

SATURDAY

I managed to climb out from D lazy chair & when to supermarket wt hubby & muchkin for groceries shopping. we had fun, it was Raakin's first market shoppng also. selalu nk jg bawa, but susah bcoz nk dukung la, nak beli brg lg. but now, mommy's sweetheart dah besar....dah pandai sit inside D trolly. see, how cute my darling....

Sempat tackle cashier lg. Kecik2 ni x takpe la, dah besar jgn ye....ikut taste mommy ok...hahahhah. Luckily, he behaved...mommy pegang sayur, dia pun nk pegang, nasib baik x dicapainya fish. face espression plak, mcm kagum giler!! hahahhaha....tgh colorful vegetables & org ramai...now, he's bigger dah senang lah skit. tapi tu blom dapat kaki lg...if dah pandai walk nnt, confirm mommy kena marathon ni.....

After that, we went back & as usuall it resepi experiment time. Normally every weekend mmg hobby aku experiment2 pakai resepi book. This week dgn semangatnya aku tried masak NASI GORENG DANGING BEREMPAH....kelasss gitu..As usuall, masakan menjadi...sodaappp!!! Disahkan oleh suma & my sis skali ye.

Petang, we went out again bawa mama g beli ubat @ phamarcy & cari game controller PS2. aku pun cari game computer skali. Perangai ngalahkn budak kan? Tapi peduli ape, mmg aku & hubby love main game...nnt si kecik ni dah pandai, hah rebutlah ngan daddy. tak pun..ape lg daddy beli xbox la plak...hehheheh. before balik, sempat gk singgah the chicken rice shop..aku & hubby x mkn, sbb dah belasah nasi goreng terbaik tadi kan...mama je makan...si kecik plak, biasalah..nasib baik mommy sempat belikn drum, senyaplah kejap

Masa makan, ade one mom ni ngan anak dia behind our table. anak dia dlm 2 years kot. saw her ckp slowly2 ngan her son. skali usha btul2 rupanya her son pakai hearing aid kat telinga...sayup rasanya...she must b a strong mum to endure such thing. Masa tu rasa bersyukur sgt that Tuhan kurniakn anak aku sempurna mcm ni. aku mmg kagum & respect la tat women..

SUNDAY

Nothing much also, like always its D time i focus on my muchkin & family. Si Raakin ni plak, if mommy other org lain suma taknk! letak je kat playpen trus nangis...nk dukug je..dah dukug nk turn plak, merangkak satu umah..mengah mommy kejar. Sampaikn masak pun kena tgk mommy. Ape lg angkut la baby chair letk kat dapur...adusss, obsess btul la gan mommy. kalau everyday mcm ni, lama2 anak aku pun ble jadi masterchef nnt...hahahhaha

the rest of D day was gathering of family. family abang dtg, trus riuh la umah..makan, minum, ketawa, jerit...mcm2 la!! petang, bawa mum g clinic, got my beauty injection with sis-in-law. It was truly a good weekend.

Tiring Day!

2011-04-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

After late night working yesterday, susah giler nk bgn pagi. Still, managed to be at the imigresen @ 9.30am to settle the maid's permit. It was my 1st time doing it, well..rupanya x la susah sgt. sekejap je dh dpt, x pyh nk byr upah agent.

balik opis baru nak tag in, skali dah kena kidnap ngan joe & ida. langsung ke pasar Tmn Tun shopping food for her bf to be send to London. dah alang2 mak pun belilah sayur skit. Best gak pasar TT ni, sayur fesh2. tapi ade mahal skit la.

Lunch was @ kedai Rasa Muar with Vid, Ida & Joe. Lunch session yg amat scandalicious...hmm..Alah..Kedai ni yg masuk JJM tu. Hidangan asam pedas bermcm2 ikan. ape lg, belasah kaw2 la..lapar punya psal, pg x breakfast. Rasanya xde la hebat sgt, ok2 je. Sdp lg asam pedas mama & aku buat...resepi Melaka kaw punya. Topic perbualan hebat, sape lg kalau bukan psal barua gemuk sorg tu! x habis2 la citer keanjingan dia tu...mampus la ko satu ari, bukan aku sorg je doa, rasanya satu opis menyumpah ko...hidup menyusahkan & menutup periuk nasi org..xkan slmtnya hidup ko!! Ingat je dia, hanin satu bdn. Lantak lah dia..

Then, masuk opis stay kejap...cabut g Damas plak sambung keje. Tolong campaign TNG Linda. Mmg multi tasking btul la...bukan servicing je, jadi creative head Award Washington plak (hahahha..bg yg faham ye)

By the time sampai umah, it was almost 11pm! tgk daddy & baby dah tergolek atas katil. Cian bucuk mummy, x dpt mummy dodoikan. sedih la kalau balik x sempat main ngan anak...tapi xpe la, mummy keje kuat pun tuk dia gak...It was definately a tiring day, but when it comes to work..i just do know when to stop...takpe sayang ye, besok mummy balik awal esok...

2011-04-19T19:21:00.000-07:00

Hi BLOG!!!! OMG...it been 1 year+ haven't been blogging! Time really flies. Sekejap je dah berlalu...

Latest updates, of course I've already gave birth 2 a lovely baby boy - HAKAN RAAKIN B. MOHD ASRI. Both of us decided on the name, HAKAN means Emperor (his daddy nickname since for ages). Raakin: Respectful. Ppl find it weird, but we just luv it!! Lgpun, how many ppl has this name? ko ade? takde kan...hehhehe

A glimps of the delivery story, it was torturing! sakit smpi x tahu nk ckp camne.Snpai skang masih phobea nk pregnant. It was the longest & painful waiting. My water broke @ 1.30am, went to hospital-admitted & finally deliver at 5.30pm THE NEXT DAY!! Went through forcett & vacumm, smapi baby's head swollen, because of vacumm terlepas 2 times. don't know who mistake it is, because i don't know how 2 push or the KPJ doctor just plain stupid. It was a big huha in the delivery room...all i can do is berdoa & telan air selusuh berbotol2. When the baby came out, he was almost lemas. i was crying & praying like crazy seeing him being care by the doc. Until he cried, then it was a huge relief. But still, i did not get to hold him, as they immdiately rush him 2 intensive care! come to think of it, i should have stick with doc idris!! nak save kononnya, at the end i spend more...Tapi yg geram tu, kesian baby. he was admitted into the intensive care unit for 3 days with wires, drips & not allow to have any milk.

Bayangkan la mcm mana runtuh nya hati ni bila tgk!! Mcm mana pun alhamdullilah, everything was ok. And now, my darling is healthy, active & as cute as mommy...hehehe. Now he's 10 months +...

For me, life has changed a lot!!! Masa tuk sendiri mmg takde la...penat x pyh ckp la...Managed to get a job right after confinement. so, its managing work, house & baby. Still, i'm lucky that i have mum & maid. Nowadays, i try to come back as early as i can..i just hate coming back & my baby dah tido. still advertising is like that..so, sabar je la. tapi since dia lahir until now, not even a day i get to have a good sleep. nak buat susu mlm2, merengek la, restless la...aduss. that's y ppl said that, it will last at least until 2 years...Daddy...aduss, stress dibuat ye. sayang anak, tapi jaga nk jaga x pandai...dah kena bising, marah berkali2 baru lah pandai skit. so, jgn ingat everything come naturally ye...again sabar je la. dah dapat sorang ni pun, rahmat yg x terhingga!!

Now, my baby has started learnin to walk. merangkak laju giler..abis kejar mummy 1 rumah..perangai, mcm mummy laaa...temperamental, stubborn...ha, padan muka mummy kan!sampai hilanglah sabar mummy, tapi bila nampk muka hencem tu sejuk balik hati...biasa dia!! yg x tahan lagi tu, dh pandai bye bye..plaK tu, mcm Usop Wilcha ! Kita bakor je la!! hahahha!!! Mmg la dia pengubat segala masalah!! Tapi now yg risau, x kuar gigi satu pun lg...hmmm

Anyway, kalau nk citer suma benda back dated mmg bole tulis novel. Yg penting, now i'm working, so i can basically provide or buy anything for my baby. I want the best for him. Walaupun this is my last month working here, there's already better job waiting...heheheh. i'll b taking a break the whole May & back to work 1st June. Other than that, major problem is my weight, still struggling to cut some fats...well, anyway hopefully the future will b better, insyaallah...Yg pasti, i just want to spend that 1 month with my baby & family..

NOW, OUR LIFE IS FINALLY COMPLETE!!

1st trimester (Part 5)

2009-11-22T05:58:00.000-08:00

This is the latest update on my baby. This was taken last Monday. Dah lama ingatkan nak update, tapi tak berkesempatan je..last week was quite a bz working week. Hubby pun dah bising sbb janji nak upload gambar scan. Checked out my 2 months half baby:

alhamdullilah, so far my baby is healthy. Development pun normal. it's a miracle, baru 2 bulan lebih, dah bole nampk kepala, badan, small feet & hand.tapi doc kata belum perfectly jadi lagi, tat one will evolve slowly.whatever it is...bersyukur sungguh pada Allah that everything is ok. Can't wait for my 3 months check-up!!!

2009-11-11T06:19:00.000-08:00

Lately nothing much happened. somehow, bleeding pun dah takde, maybe my pregnancy dah becomes stronger..alhamdullilah. Tapi masih lagi dlm keadaan berjaga2, selagi tak lepas lah 1st trimester ni.
Now, dah larat la skit gi office. Tapi kalau nk bangun pagi tu mmg seksa la, badan pun rasa malas2 je, tengahari plak ngantuk je...tapi overall still ok la kalau bole gi opis tu..alhamdullilah, nampaknya makin byk project nbak masuk. Client pun dah request proposal for year 2010....so, nk taknak kena lah bertahan skit, terpaksa lah kuatkan gak semangat bekerja...kang takde gaji susah plak....malas nak harapkan duit laki...stress mak nanti!!!
hari ni, sempat gak gi buat passport kat sri rampai. ingatkan x ramai org....fuhhh...punya la ramai giler!!! 2.30pm amik nombor, kul 3.45pm baru dapat buat...tension! Sementara menunggu tu sempat gak la gi Wangsa Walk window shopping..i bought my first parenting book, mahal lah jugak (RM88.90).Tapi nampak mcm very comprehensive:

Physically, everything dah kembang...most of my jeans dah tak muat, have to wear with belly belt baru ble pakai. waist pun dah takde cutting dah, straight je..sadisss!!! walaupun didn't ate much, tapi rasanya weight ttp naik...bayangkanlah kalau appetite dah ade nanti...jalan pun badan rasa berat je...sabar je la...janji baby sihat...mummy terima je la sumanya...hehehe
skang ni wardrobe pun dah kosong skit...baju2 yg sendat2, body fitting suma dah kena transfer ke bilik sebelah...tinggal nak isi baju maternity plak...tapi beli slow2 la...
tapi yg x best nyer...dah la tgh pregnant..ade je org yg nak sakitkan hati ni. dah la emotion makin x stabil..dengar lagu celine dion pun ble nangis...lagi nak buat mak stress!! tau2 abis ckp tepon, air mata pun dah meleleh...takpe la..org taknak jaga hati kita biar kita je la jaga sendiri...silent is golden! ape2 pun...kena byk sabar je la...tak sabar nak tunggu next Monday check-up. want to see my baby!!!

1st trimester (Part 4)

2009-11-04T05:52:00.000-08:00

It’s been a while since my last blog. Not busy with work but more of resting at home. After my check-up at KPJ due to the bleeding, doc nasihatkan bykkan berehat. Takut nanti risiko keguguran. So, that’s what I did.

Not only yesterday, barulah kuatkan badan gi meeting & see doc for my 2nd check-up. I went to see Dr. Idris, instead of Dr. Rasliza (KPJ). Somehow, I feel more comfortable & confidence with him. He’s so gentle, understanding, detailed, caring & the most important things is that he really took the time to explain. Tambahan plak, the bleeding happened again after we got back from PD, I really need advise from Dr. that I truly trust.

Alhamdullilah, my baby is ok. Dah besar skit. my weight pun naik skit from 56 to 56.2kg. But the best part is…listening to my baby heartbeat for the first time!!! What a miracle. I almost cried….kalau hubby dengar mesti happy & terharu punya. Eventhough sifat tak sempurna lagi, but listening to the heartbeat is like music to my heart. Dr. Idris advises are the same, bykkan berehat, jgn buat keje berat2, jgn angkat benda berat2, kalau jln & naik tangga pun pelan2. At least until i’m 4 months. Well…kalau ade maid bole la..takan nak harapkan mama sorang, dah la dia jaga qistina. Mama pun x bagi buat ape pun, especially angkat benda berat2, tapi mana yg ringan tu tolonglah gak. Sian mama…
* So, hubby…rasanya kena cepat skit cari maid ni….hehehe

Tapi Dr. kata, I still can go to India end of this year, Cuma kena jaga lebih skit la before nak pegi. I’m sure that he will take care & prepare me & my baby for our up-coming trip, lagipun mama pun ikut, so I’m not that worry.

Check out my 2 months pregnancy:

Today, finally I decided that I’m going to the office. Rasa dah lama sgt rehat. Elok2 nak masuk opis, masa tu gak la client cam tau2 je..suma tepon, brief pasal job..nasib baik masuk opis! Reached office around 1.30pm, sempatlah buat keje skit. ingatkan nak gi shopping brg skit ngan Linda. I really need to buy flat shoe (kasut yg ade suma 3 inci, camne nak pakai), maternity jeans (jeans yg ade suma tak bole butang….tu la gatal lagi beli suma tight & skinny jeans!)….tapi apekan daya… my bleeding jadi balik, mungkin sebab naik turun tangga, Jalan sana sini. Tapi skit je la. So, I took my pills yg Dr. Idris bagi (duphaston) & headed home. Kalau mcm ni la…rasanya lama lagi lah kena rehat kat umah…Adusss!!!

1st trimester (Part 3) - 24/10

2009-10-25T07:12:00.000-07:00

Today, i managed to woke up early. Despite of the morning sickness yg masih teruk melanda, sempat jugak pegi bank & kutip baju dry cleaning yg ntah berapa minggu dah x amik. breakfast menu hari ni-roti canai telor with kuah kari ikan. Masa beli x sabar nk makan, tapi went i got into the car je....bau kari+perfume kete+roti canai...Ya Allah..loya giler!!! arrived home, nak taknak sumbat jugak la..takut lapar..tapi bila dah masuk perut, ok la plak...adusss!

after breakfast, me & mum siap2 & trus gi umah abg opit. Today is Akeef CEC School Concert kat putrajaya. Dah janji ngan dia nak tgk, walaupun x larat terpaksa la kuatkan badan. Yg x tahan skali ni, ari2 ni yg asyik sengal2 & berdenyut2...sabar je la..perut plak kejap lapar, tapi semua x selera nak makan..

Concert akeef abis around 4.30pm, i had so much fun!! those kids are so adorable..bijak2 plak. Tak sangka akeef pun pandai twist, takde stage fright plak tu..insyaaalah, nanti our turn plak tgk baby ni concert. berdoa sgt pada tuhan, baby ni selamat, sihat, sempurna dilahirkan nanti. before heading home, we decided to singgah makan kat alamanda.

Sempat la aku shopping my first maternity clothing, dapat la pants since all my jeans are tight fitted, lagi sebulan confirmed dah x muat!! Dah lama i dreamed about this moment, maternity shopping...Alhamdullilah! after that, pegi beli food supply for my problem tekak ni...since i can't take anything fried & oily, i decided to go with light2 food yg x meloyakan. got myself some fresh milk, soya drink, anmum milk (ppl says it's good for baby developments, so i pun nak try gak..), bread, 3 in 1 healthy oat drink & prunes (since hubby says makan jeruk mangga tak elok, ganti la ngan prunes- healthier)

finally we arrived home, lepas hubby called, trus collapsed tido..Letih giler!!! Mlm, had my milk ate some bread, trus naik atas nak tido awal.baru je baring nak lelapkan mata, suddenly perut memulas. apa lagi bekejar la ke toilet..to my suprised, masa duduk sambil menunggu masa, i've noticed ade a drip of blood!!! Ya Allah, panik giler. i stopped everything, nak 'melabur' pun x jadi! i was so scared. Bagitau mama, dia pun risau tapi since i told her that it was dark brown color blood, she was then a bit relief. Mama kata org pregnant mmg kadang2 camtu...mungkin darah lama...mmg happens to some pregnant ladies. Tapi i'm still worried, nak tido pun tak bole...ape2, besok pagi i nak gi gak check ngan doctor. Mama pun kata better, takut la anything ke..kalau ikutkan hati ni,mlm ni gak nk gi...tapi hubby takde, sampai nak drive..lagipun mana ade gynae mlm ni...sabar jela...byk2 berdoa...tapi lepas tu, i've stopped going to toilet...sebab dah fobia!! Alhamdullilah..setelah penat cuba memejamkan mata, akhirnya berjaya jugak...minta2 takde la ape2 akan jadi besok....

1st trimester (Part 2)

2009-10-22T08:19:00.001-07:00

Today, my morning sickness started...sengsaranyaaa....mlm susah nak tido! breast sakit, perut tak selesa, ari2 rasa cam berdenyut2.

at 6.30am , i dah terjaga. couldn't sleep, was soooo hungry!! setelah meloya2 & muntah2 sampai rasa nak pitam, barulah siap2 & kuar cari nasi lemak (bole caya tu...). balik trus breakfast ngan mama, tapi tak abis plak...tekak plak tak ble terima..tapi paksa gak..dapat la makan skit. nasib baik mama buatkan milo 2 cawan, baru ok.

today ade meeting scheduled at 2.30pm. Allah...Tuhan je la tahu camne malasnya & tak larat. golek punya golek, still tak larat gak nak bgn. finally berjaya gak amik linda & headed to S.A for the presentation.

Dalam kete plak ntah berapa kalai la plak uwekk2!!! nasib baik dua2 dlm kete preggies..so faham la situation..

after meeting, went back to office & trus gi makan...LAPAARRR!! punyalah bengang plak, i've ordered spaghetti bolognese, skali datang spaghetti seafood with baby clamp. Stress nyer!!! tapi pasal cian tgk muka waiter tu, i decided to just take up the food. ingatkan bole la makan, sekali...5 suap je, then dah meloya...bengang2, pay the bills, trus balik!!

until now, my tekak still x ble terima apa2.risau gak my baby..the best that i can do, makan roti, minum susu & soya drinks. walau pun tak sekenyang mana, terisi jugak la perut ku ini...besok ni..tak tau la nak makan ape plak!!! kalau ade hubby senang skit nak cari makan...aduss!!! Takpe la...demi baby ni, sabar je la...dengan harapan cepat2 la mabuk ni hilang..

1st trimester (Part 1)

2009-10-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

This is the beginning of another new chapter in our lifes. setelah lama menunggu, finally kami dianugerahkan kurnian yg tak terhingga...syukur, alhamdullilah...i'm confirmed pregnant!!!

My period was last for 2 weeks, plus my breast was bengkak & painful. at first, i thought tat it's normall. coz my menstrual pun selalu x regular & the breast is part of the senggugut. but then, mama yakin that i dah sangkut. i x percaya, coz before this it's was always faults alarm. tapi memandangkan kebengkakan breast yg berbeza, i decided to take the pregnancy test.

Location of testing: rumah linda (hahahahha!!!)

OTW nk amik linda, stopped by beli testing kit la. sampai umah trus jalankan project. to my suprise, ade 2 line la plak...tapi mcm kabur. show it to linda, linda terkejut & convinced that i'm pregnant. at tat time, i was not excited yet, sbb mcm tak percaya....mungkin tester tu x betul. so, me & linda decided tat, we'll do again kat office. so we did, this time the lines lagi clear, rasa cam nak nangis pun ade...speechless pun ade..mcm2 la...tapi takut nak percaya lagi...takut silap..

anyway, i decided to informed my husband kat india la. dia pun mcm tak caya, kata i main2...coz my menstrual mmg selalu lambat...explained kat dia, dia cam blur2...then kata ok..(maklumlah, org baru bgn tido..heheheh). then few minutes later, he called back....baru lah cam sedar, trus excited....tapi i ckp, releks dulu, biar confirmkan ngan doc.

immediately, i went to see my gynaen (Dr. Idris-Pantai Bangsar). i was so nervous & excited at the same time....sedih jugak hubby takde temankan...dah la first pregnancy...tapi gagahkan je la.

alhamdullilah, doc scan, my pregnancy dah 6 weeks. i can see the lump besar 4 cm through the screen...it was miracle!!!!

i confirmedkan ngan hubby...dia lagi la excited...kesian dia jauh kat india...we both was thrill!! except linda & shukri, nobody else know bout this...

dengan hati yg berbunga2, went back home. sampai umah, took out the scan image show it to mama...mama terkejut & was so happy tat she cried & me too....it was a very touching moment...(bila teringat mmg sedih la)...then she took the scan pic & we both went to sis house. mama tunjuk plak kat kak shella, even worst everone broke into tears!!!! sedih giler....all of us was too happy sampai berderai2 airmata....

alhamdullilah...we all betul2 bersyukur sgt kepada Allah kerna akhirnya hajat kami dimakbulkan...mungkin berkat doa Qistina juga la yg memberikan kami such a miracle!!!